I HATE THIS, I HATE HOW I FEEL. I FEEL LIKE I LOST YOU. I KNOW I PUSHED YOU AWAY, I DID IT CUZ I WAS WORRIED, I WAS WORRIED THAT YOU WOULD HURT ME, MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU AMD THEN LEAVE ME. AFTER BEING LEFT BY MY FAMILY AND KNOWING HOW MUCH PAIN I FELT, HOW HEART BROKEN I WAS I TOLD MYSELF I WOULD NEVER ALLOW MYSELF TO GET TOO CLOSE TO ANYONE. THATS WHEN I BUILT THESE HUGE WALLS TO PROTECT MY HEART, I'VE HAD THESE WALLS UP FOR SO MANY YEARS, I THOUGHT NO ONE WOULD BE ABLE TO GET PASS THEM, BUT YOU WERE ABLE TO KNOCK THEM DOWN SO FAST. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I WAS FALLIN IN LOVE WITH YOU. NOW I DON'T KNOW WHICH ONE IS WORSE THE THOUGHT OF LIVIN WITHOUT YOU AND NEVER KNOWIN WHAT COULD'VE BEEN, OR THE THOUGHT OF YOU LEAVIN ME, ABANDONING ME. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BECOME THAT BITCH, YOU KNOW THE ONE WHO CRIES OVER A MAN THAT MADE IT CLEAR TO HER, HE WANTS NOTHIN TO DO WITH HER.I NEVER WANTED TO HURT YOU! IT'S SAD, I NEVER THOUGHT A MAN WOULD MAKE ME WEAK, BUT THATS HOW I FEEL WITHOUT YOU. I LOVE YOU!
drained